I wish someone told me that even though I am an adult, living without my mother would still be extremely difficult. Don't take that the wrong way-- I am a grown adult woman who is raising 4 wonderful children, working full time, managing my home and enjoying myself; but I MISS MY MOM.... she was my best friend, she was my support, my medical advice giver, my shopping buddy. You see I am an only child and for 7 years after my mom and dad divorced, it was only her and I; and even after she married my stepdad, we still did everything together....and even after I got married and started having my own children, her and I still did everything together...And even after I got divorced and was trying to regain my independence and start my life over again, her and I still did everything together....and even in the midst of all her cancers and her fighting sickness from chemo and radiation, we.still.did.everything.together. I think about her everyday, I dream about her often, I wish I could call her all throughout the day and tell her "Mom, can you believe Cj's voice is changing...he's going through puberty...oh my" and "Mom, Ethan is so advanced in school and way above his grade level...but I can't get him off his video game"..."Mom, Joseph is struggling in reading...but he can play baseball like a pro", and "Mom, you won't believe the cute outfits I found for Angie...and I can't believe her sassiness...just like me". I knew it would be different, but I thought, that with having my boys and being pregnant with Angie, that I could go on with my own life and that through memories I could move on. I wish someone told me it would be this hard.... Mommy, I miss you!!!!
Me, My mom & Cj-- 2000
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