Monday, December 29, 2008

I Sure Have Missed You All!!

Just a quick little note to let you all know that I am still here...obviously with the holiday (and going through the "motions" with Joe's diagnosis) things have just been CRAZY arounnd here.
A quick update for you all:
We went to a new oncologist (Dr. Z)...he was my mom's hematologist oncologist for 15 years and was very close with her; so naturally I trust him tremedously!! Right now we are waiting to find out what type of CML that Joe has (philadelphia chromosone positive or philadelphia negative). Once we know that then he (Dr. Z) will sit down with us and give us the gameplan. Philadelphia positive is the "easier" to treat of the two, but the Philadelphia negative is still treatable. We go back on Tuesday to hopefully get thise results... I say "hopefully" because he tested only by blood; and we are hoping that the blood test will be conclusive so that Joe will not have to do the bone marrow biopsy (which he is ok/ready to do if needed---that is an answer to prayer!!!) This is the most immediate of prayer requests, followed by continued prayers for Joe's thoughts, fears and apprehensions. I am doing my best (giving ALL i can) to keep his spirits up; but naturally he is scared-- scared of the unknown, unanswered questions. Also, please continue o pray for me.... I am giving all I know how to so that I can help boost Joe's spirit; I am trying to keep doing things like "normal" so he doesn't feel out of whack. And while I absolutely DO NOT mind that, it is still taking it's toll on me (mentally). I swear, if I could get into his body and fight this things hands on, I would do it IN A HEARTBEAT!!! I did have a rough time on Friday at the oncologist's office because the last time I was there was with my mom while she got her chemo....and that did bring up alot of memories and make me pretty sad (i had a really good cry on Friday evening); but now that I got that initial visit out of the way, I should be fine!! And actually, even if I wasn't fine I would still go so that I can be there for Joe!!

In spite of all of this (and at the fact the boys were not here), we did still have a nice Christmas and will post pictures in the next day or so... But, I did want to share a few pictures of Angie's Christmas concert. A few of the 3 and 4 year old classes sang at the school's church service and they did such a cute job ( i was going to do ths as my photo story friday, but that was the day we got the initial diagnosis and things have just been a whirlwind/roller coaster since then....Anyway, here are a few pictures of that:

Angie ready to go

Waiting for everyone to take the stage

Singin "Away in the Manger"
"We Wish You a Merry Christmas"
Being silly at lunch afterwards....that's ketchup all over her face :)
I just L-O-V-E this picture
Thanks for being patient with me, you guys!! I promise I will be making my rounds and checking in on all of you... I really have missed reading about all of you.....but right now I am going to TRY to go to sleep--- it's 2:50am...yikes, I do have to work tomorrow!!!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Wordful Wednesday-- Merry Christmas Everyone!!

It's officially Christmas..... granted, it's 12:38 am, but it is Christmas!! I think I am hearing Santa's jingles coming, so I better get to bed so he will stop here; but I wanted to join in with Wordful Wednesday (better late than not, right??) because I have been kind of "absent these past few days (I'm sure you all understand why.....).

My Nana (the kid's great-grandma) sent the kids new robes as part of their Christmas gifts and they all decided they wanted to put them on while they finised opening gifts (remember I celebrated with the boys on Christmas Eve this year).... It's so cute to see them all in their different shapes and sizes; and different colors and designs:
After they opened all the other gifts, I went to the back of the tree and found that one final gift for them ALL (yes, they were surprised....and yes, it's really for the whole family). They all ripped as much paper as they could and under it all was a Wii.... :)
So yea...we spent most of the afternoon playing on that thing....and I can say I am addicted to Guitar Hero.
I hope you all have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! I promise to update you all on Joe; but hot until after the holiday.... we are really trying to give our brains a "break"!!!

Monday, December 22, 2008

I'd Like to Call it a "Good" Day!!

Wow, these past few days have been a total roller coaster!! I have been physically sick since Saturday morning...(not sure if it's from Friday night, the stomach flu or just nerves)...can't really keep anything down, probably lost about 5 pounds!! Joe has had his ups and downs. Understandably, he is very nervous about the unanswered questions.... but today I was able to talk to his oncologist and get a little info to hold us off until tomorrow afternoon. She did confirm that it is CML (Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia) and that we are waiting for the rest of the tests to find out what "type" of CML that it is. But, she also said that he will be able to take a pill and treat it that way..... she even said that with good treatment it could even go away, without being gone (because there is no "cure", but it could go into remission)... And she also said that he does not have to do the bone marrow biopsy yet... she said he could wait until next week (at least)...phheewww, that his a big weight off of his shoulders right now and through Christmas!!
We are still going to another oncologist on Friday; but mostly because he is the oncologist that treated my mom for 19 years and I trust him VERY much!! Aside from him being one of the best in the state, he is also close with our family...he loved my mom and took such good care of her; and I know he'll do the same for Joe!!
Thank you for your awesome words and continued support... WOW, who would've thought that I would find such support in this blogging world....
And THANK YOU for your prayers....please continue to keep Joe and our family on your prayer list!!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

He's Only 39.............

I am still in such a state of shock.... I can't believe this is all happening....another cancer in our family. I mean seriously, why??? He is only 39 years old...this should not be happening!!!
It is very difficult to watch the person that you love feeling so down and hurt. And knowing that there is nothing I can do to "fix" it!! He is scared of course and so worried about the bone marrow test. Anyone know what that entails??? He feels like an outcast he says; and feels like everyone is being extra nice to him because they think he's going to die. All I can do is reassure him that these things are not true.

On a lighter note, we did go to our company Christmas party last night...I was very happy that he felt like getting out of the house and was able to keep his mind off of this (at least most of the time). But, of course I had too many adult drinks and I feel terrible today. It is 3:30 and Joe and I just got out of bed (we showered and dressed earlier, but have just been laying around)...part of it is hangover and part of it is just being down and trying to help each other feel better!!

Again, I ask to keep our family in your prayers....the kids do not know about this yet and I don't even know when or how to tell them. Please ask everyone you know to pray for us-- especially Joe!! He is only 39......

Friday, December 19, 2008

WTF??? WTF??? WTF???

Is this some big, funny joke????? Joe went for his annual physical yesterday and he got a call today that some tests were WAY off. His doctor sent him right to the hematologist and after alot more tests and consults, we found out that Joe has some form of Leukemia..... WHAT????? WHY??? I can't do this again, you guys..... Another person I love with cancer????
This came c-o-m-p-l-e-t-e-l-y out of left field....gosh, everything was just fine and then BOOM!! He has something called "Chronic myelogenous leukemia (CML)" and I am hoping that we caught it at the early stages. He goes next week to get a bone marrow test to see if he can take some pill...if not, then he will have to get a bone marrow transplant!!
Please pray for us, please pray for Joe's healing first!! But pray for him as he is very scared and apprehensive for all of these upcoming doctors & tests (he usually gets faint at the sight of blood)!! And please pray for me (and his family) as I just don't know how much more I can take!! I have to be strong for him, because I want him to "want" to fight this...I don't want him to lose his "will to fight"....but I am crumbling inside!!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Dear Santa,

Poor Mrs. MamaKat has been sooo busy trying to get her Christmas gifts all made and ready (and then made again because of a “glitch” -- read here to get the story), but she didn’t leave us hanging and has given some great prompts to pick from this week….

Dear Santa,
I realize that I am a BIG girl now….but you know that I do still believe. Wow, who doesn’t believe in a chubby old fellow with a long white beard and rosy cheeks who loads us up with all the treats we want…? Santa, I think I have been a very good girl this year…well, I’ve made some boo-boos in the “relationship” department (between you and I, we’ve both made some mistakes), but we’ve worked through those and all is good there. And I guess sometimes I’m a little lacking in the parenting department (oh you know that I raise my voice a little too much at times—but geez, with 4 kids I HAVE to run a tight ship here). But for the most part, I am a very good girl… well, okay, you got me again, there are a few times that I went out and drank a few too many “adult” drinks and didn’t feel very good the next morning….
Santa, what I’d really like for Christmas is to feel some peace in my heart….. Ok, you got me AGAIN (how do you keep doing that), I do really want a CHI for my hair and some pretty diamond earrings and some new running sneakers so I can get back into my running (I promised my dad that I would run a 5K with him) and some girly/pampering items and a new laptop…. But above all of that, I want my heart to feel whole again. I’ve been struggling a lot lately with that…. I really miss my mom. I miss the companionship, friendship, support, shopping trips, dinner nights, and UNCONDITIONAL love. Yes, Santa…I am very grateful for my dad. I love him too and really don’t know what I would do without him. But you know how the mother/daughter relationship is…. And I.miss.that. I just want to be my old self again….. in everything. Santa, you know what I mean, I know you do!!
Anyway, I will leave you some really good cookies and a BIG glass of milk (sorry about this—but screw the new thing where parents make there kids leave fruits/veggies and healthy stuff, as to teach their kids “healthy habits”…I mean come on, we all know the real Santa tradition)…and I will even draw you a cute picture like I used to….

Mistletoe (like my mom used to call me) and Halfpint (like my dad still does call me)

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

They Like Me...They Really Do Like Me.....

I have some housekeeping to take care of first............ A month or so ago, I was given two awards and have just been soooooo busy that I haven't had a chance to post about them. And, if I'm being honest (which I am), I did forget about them--- but please know that it's not because I didn't appreciate's just that...well, with 4 kids and a full time job and a sick dog and the holidays and....... (you get it) they just slipped my mind.

But now, I would like to give a HUGE thank you to:

April who gave me this:

And said this "...blogs I think deserve this award because I just love reading them. I always make sure to check and see what they have to say everyday. They are funny and truthful and I can relate to all of them.." about my (and a few others) blog!! Thank you April-- I love reading your blog everyday too... it's nice to know that others are going through the same type of craziness (i.e. rearranging the Christmas ornaments).

AVT Coach who gave me this:
And said this: "This woman has a life of joy with her family!" She is so right on with that statement!! Thank you, Thank you...I enjoy reading your blog too, and wanted to give a big CONGRATS to your daughter who just graduated college!!!

Today, Kristin gave me this:
And said this: "I love any blog by a mommy with three boys. Makes me feel less crazy." Yes ma'am....and add one little girl to that mix and I'm on the crazy train right with you!! :) I love her reading her blog too (are you starting to see a trend....? yes, I am a stalker, errr, I mean an avid reader). She has the funniest stories of her adventures with 3 boys, one that just started walking...and if you read this story (yes, he got into the trash and "ate" the coffee grounds) you will be laughing OUT LOUD!!!
I have to name 5 things that I think are FABULOUS:
-My Family, of course.....without them I wouldn't have this blog!!
-My friends...without them I wouldn't have an outlet to vent and "let loose"!!
-My Blog and all my blogging friends.... without them it wouldn't be any fun to come back and do this everyday!!
-My pajamas (he-he)....without them I couln't lay around on Saturday and Sunday mornings and just veg until I'm ready to get moving (come know you all love to do that!!)
-Chic-fil-a.....without it I wouldn't have my large sweet tea with extra ice everyday (and yes, that is exactly how I order it; and yes, they all know me there every time they hear that order)
And I am giving this award to:
April because she is fabulous and I owe her for waiting so long to post about her award to me!!
AVT Coach because she has great stories and again, I owe her for waiting so long!!
Emily because she is someone I really "connect" with...she is so sweet and a good little wifey to her new hubby!!
Carrin because her "story" is alot like mine and I love to read her adventures!!
Heather Marie because she is somenody new I've "met" and really like her "company" :)
And for everybody else that I didn't name, because it is SO hard to just pick 5 fabulous blogs, this one is for you too!! You are all Fabulous......
Wow, this was a fun post.... of course I love to be loved..... BTW- I just made a "funny supper" (which is breakfast for dinner) and had the best banana pancakes...yummy!!

WW - Snug as a Bug in a Rug

I'm still feeling kind of down today...geez, I really hope this goes away....I want to enjoy the holiday season with the kids. You know, maybe that is part of it....maybe, on top of the fact that I am missing my mom, I am also sad that my boys won't be with me for Christmas... :( But, I have to pull myself out of this funk....this is soooo not like me... arrgghhh!!!
Anyway, today is Wordful Wednesday; and even when I'm bummed out, So, the other night I layed down on the couch to watch TV with Joseph and Angie decided to climb up on me to watch TV with us....Somehow, even though it looks really uncomfortable, we were very snug and cozy all cuddled with each other. CJ thought it was cute and took this picture (yes, Joseph was already asleep):
I guess after some time went by. we all ended up asleep and CJ came by again and took our picture:
This picture really makes me smile.... I love the way we are all snuggled up..... I'm sure that I couldn't have been comfortable like that, with Angie right on top of me; but, we were just cuddled up with each other and did what comes naturally---- sleep!!!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I miss my mommy!!!

Thanks DivaMa for giving me the opp to "Tell it Like it Tiz".........

This is kind of a sad, feeling sorry for myself, knowing that my life could be worse, but just mopey post!!! So, if you don't want to hear it, then come back tomorrow!! It has been almost 4 years since I lost my mom (january 7 is the day) and I swear it isn't getting any easier!! There are days (like today) where I wake up and I "need" to talk to her..... you see, she was not only my mom, but my best friend too. We did everything together, talked on the phone at least 3 times a day ( until she got too weak and sick to talk so much) and had dinner together at least once a week (that was always my night off--where my mom would "take care" of everything--dinner, kids, baths, dessert etc..). I woke up this morning and I just really needed to hear her voice, I wanted to tell her about Angie singing at church and how when I picked up the boys yesterday that CJ's voice is deeper than ever!! I wanted to plan our Christmas dinner together and egg her on about not being able to guess what I got her for Christmas.... Oh, how I miss her.... why are some days so much harder than others??? My life is so different now without her; it seems like evrything has changed-- family doesn't get together like we used to, holidays are different, birthdays aren't the same.... sometimes I just feel lost without her!! I know I am a grown adult woman, with my own family...I know that we "expect" to lose our parents before us; but sometimes it just feels like it was too early, she was too young to die...I am too young to not have my mom...she should've lived to see her grandchildren graduate high school & college and go to their weddings!!!! She should've lived to deliver more babies and grow in her career (she had such a huge patient base, that loved her like I do...).
I am so disgusted cancer and all these "foundations" that we donate to that should be finding some kind of break through to help people with cancer. But, I'm no dummy-- I know they will never find a cure....too many people would lose money/funding if they could nix cancer (or alzheimers, diabetes, parkinson's get it)!!!
If you are still here, thanks for listening to my rant.... it feels good to share about my mom... I just miss her so!!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

Photo Story Friday - My Trombone Player

Happy Friday everyone!!! I wonder if you have any fun and exciting things planned for this weekend!?!? My first order of business for tomorrow morning is: stay in my pajamas, in bed or lounging around, for as long as possible!!! Once I finally decide to get up and dressed, then I am going to try to finish my Christmas shopping and do all of my holiday baking; and on Sunday, Angie is singing at the Church service at her school..... I can't wait for that, because this will be the first time she has done any type of school program!! :)
PhotoStory Friday
Hosted by Cecily and MamaGeek

So, to get the weekend started, I am going to do my Photo Story on CJ's band concert!! He plays the trombone for the Symphonic band at his school. My boy is very musically inclined...he can play most instruments and most of the time he teaches himself how to play them. He can play most music by ear (on any instrument); and can usually "perfect" it after only a few times!! He writes music and is actually getting very good at that!! Anyway, this past Tuesday was the Winter/Holiday Concert for his school's band and he was so excited (as he always is) to play for all his "fans"!!

Ready to leave for the concert (I still can't believe that he is almost my height!!)
On our way you see how he is twirling/fiddling with his fingers...? He does that when he gets nervous and/or excited
Playing his little heart out...... he keeps going...
and going....
and going....
Standing "O" for my boy.....
Me and my lovies after the concert...
I am so proud of proud of his talent and how he has learned (and taught himself) so much in the past couple of years; he is truly talented!! I always tell him that he should stick with it and continue with the band through high school and college.... oh, all the fun he will have in college and traveling with the band!!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Writer's Workshop... Lend Me and Ear

Once again, it’s Thursday and I’m loving the fact that this week flew right by….. But I guess during this time of year, the days do just fly by and before I know it will be Christmas!!! Speaking of Christmas, this is “one of those Christmas’s”; and by that I mean, the boys will be with there dad on Christmas this year…. Boo!!! It’s not supposed to be this way!! I know, I know, I’m supposed to be “fair”; it’s “according to the divorce docs”…..but WTF was I thinking when I agreed to let my boys go away every other Christmas…?? It’s just not the same waking up on Christmas morning to only Angie at the side of my bed, begging me to wake up and see what Santa brought (because they all know they are NOT allowed to go through Santa’s presents without me there to see the excitement). It’s not the same making our Christmas breakfast with 4 eggs instead of the whole dozen, and 6 pieces of bacon instead of the whole package…. We will be celebrating our (meaning with the boys) Christmas on Christmas Eve this year. We will wake up on Christmas Eve and pretend it’s Christmas morning and I will try to maintain all of our little traditions that we usually do on Christmas morning!! And then after we do our gifts and breakfast and play time, I will take them on “that drive” to their dad’s house and say goodbye for 10 days….oh and yes, I will cry the whole way home!!!
WOW—that felt good to get that off my chest… I’ve been wanting to whine and b*@tch about it for a while now!! Thanks for listening!! And that works out perfect for today’s Writing Assignment at MamaKat’s!! She asks “Who makes the best listener and why?”
My immediate answer would be my mom of course. She was the best listener known to man-- I could tell her anything, anytime!! Unfortunately, since she passed away, I can only talk to her "spirit"; and while I do "do" that, it's just not the same!! The next answer would be that all of you are my best listeners, and let me tell you why!! I can come here and talk to you at anytime of the day, whether it be early in the morning or after a late, late night. I can tell you anything...whatever is on my chest. I can vent and complain when I'm angry; I can smile and laugh and tell you the funny stories; I can gloat and brag and tell you how proud I am of my family; I can cry when I'm sad or hurting; I can unload my burdens by just writing it out.....most of all, I can come here and just-be-me!!! And the best thing is, I can do all of this without interuption!! :) You listen but you don't talk back. You let me spill my guts at 100 miles/minute and don't cut in and make me stop for a break. And then, when you know I need it, you offer your words---words of support or laughter or encouragement!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Wordful Wednesday -- It's a Tradition!!

It's Wednesday....the middle of the week....once we get past noon we will be closer to the weekend than Monday!! Why is it that we long for the weekends?? Is it true--- "Everybody's working for the weekend"..? (come on you know you just started singing that song) Wednesday also means "Wordful Wednesday" at Seven Clown Circus. I always have so much fun with this because Not much else to say about that!!

This is one of our long standing traditions. My dad always makes the mashed matter what holiday, no matter who's house we are at. Actually, my grandfather and my dad used to do it together, and then it became my dad and my "thing" and now it's my dad and Cj's. Don't mess with my dad (he's "Gamps" to the kids) when it comes to the mashed potatoes... he takes great pride in them....and eats it up (literally) when all of us ooh and ahh over how scrumptous they taste!! See below how he is pouring in the warmed buttermilk at just the right intervals (he's an aeronautical engineer--a mathematician; so yes, he does calculate the right intervals). And let me just tell you...I know they are only mashed potatoes--but dad makes a mean batch of warm, buttery, salty (but not too much), milky, soft mashed poatoes!!!

And CJ is so proud of the fact that Gamps has let him join in with the tradition; he is so proud that Gamps actually lets him mix/beat the potatoes.....actually, what CJ doesn't realize is that Gamps probably couldn't wait for CJ to want to join in!!
I love traditions... I love to get excited about them and I love to see my kids getting excited about them... Do you all have any fun traditions that always stick out?? How many of you watch "A Christmas Story" for 24hrs straight every year??

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

100 things on my 100th post

Wow...this is my 100th post... I can't believe I actually stuck with it!! Of course, I totally accredit that to all of my blogging friends....who make it soooo fun to come here everyday!!! :)
Anyway, I thought it would be fun to tell you all 100 random thoughts/facts about me......but, the real sad thing is...... I couldn't think of that many. Either I am really boring (which of course, I know I'm not...he-he!!) or just don't want to bore you all. Just use your imagination for the rest of them!!!

1. I love my family – they are everything to me!!
2. I miss my mom---terribly… sometimes I feel completely lost without her
3. I drive a big Dodge Durango
4. I need a bigger house, with more bathrooms
5. I love to shop at Target
6. I only wear American Eagle jeans
7. I love Chic Fil a; especially their sweet tea
8. I have had plastic surgery somewhere on my body (100 points for anyone who can guess??)
9. My mom is buried in Indiana which is very difficult for me.
10. I am a HUGE Indianapolis Colts fan
11. I love BBQ
12. I love Bubbalou’s BBQ
13. on my street hangs Christmas lights…and on Christmas Eve we all put out luminaries
14. Joe also drives a big Dodge Durango
15. My ex-husband (the boy’s dad) also drives a big Dodge Durango
16. On any given night, I hear the word “mommy” at least 500 times (ok, maybe that’s a stretch—but close)
17. I like to watch Nancy Grace…even though I think she is too abrasive
18. I listen to all kinds of music, but my favorite is rock—classic, alternative…even heavy
19. I go see KORN every time they come to town
20. I love to go out and “whoop it up” sometimes…. With Joe and/or my girlfriends
21. When I do go out, I usually end up drinking too many beers and/or Captain & cokes.
22. None of my children were born past 36 weeks... Cj-36, Ethan-35, Joseph-34 and Angie-34
23. My first 2 children were born vaginally and my youngest 2 were born by c-section.
24. My youngest son (3rd child) was an emergency at 34 weeks... he weighed 4 lbs, had a collapsed lung, was intubated and in NICU for 14 days
25. Angie was my "biggest" baby at 5lbs, 14 oz.
26. My mom died when I was 18 weeks pregnant...but I was able to tell her that "it" was a girl and that "it's" middle name would be my mom's first name
27. I met Joe at work...and always had a crush on him
28. Our first "date" (although it wasn't a real date-- just friends) was wings & beer at the ale house
29. That night I remember thinking why wouldn't he try to hit on me.....
30. I am a rock climber
31. My dad and I used to take trips to the mountains in NC and rock climb up there
32. Since I've had kids, I have to settle for a rock climbing gym
33. In school, I was a springboard diver
34. I am a talker.... try me- I can talk your ear off!!
35. I am a defensive person by nature
36 -100. I am too cool for anymore words... ha-ha!!

BTW- I did finally get the kids to take a good picture and I got our Christmas cards made and mailed out!! more thing off my list!! Here it is.... from my family to yours

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Ok, I'm in love with a vampire..... so what???

Do you hear that sound???? Yes, it's the sound of me being sucked into the phenomen that is the Twilight series. I had been putting off getting involved because...well, I just don't have the time. But, this afternoon I finally made good on my promise to take CJ to see Twilight. Yes, I saw the movie before I read the book..... and actually I'm glad that I did. I went into it with no expectations, therefore NO disappointment!!! So, I loved the movie and Isn't there just something very appealing about a handsome, strong, protective, sexy "man"??? Even if he is a vampire???
Anyway, I am now completely sucked in and have to read all the books. I tried to convince myself (and CJ) that I don't need to read Twilight....because I just saw the movie and I get the storyline...I get how they fall in love. But CJ is adamant about me reading and getting all the missing, I guess I will start at the beginning.
I promise I won't leave you all during my affair with these, don't tell Joe, but I am in love with a vampire!!!

Friday, December 5, 2008

PSF - How Hard Can it Be...seriously??

PhotoStory Friday
Hosted by Cecily and MamaGeek

I really do love this time of year.... I love looking at all the decorations around town and all the lights on the houses. I love the Christmas music and Christmas movies.... I even love the hussle and bussle of trying to get everything done (even though it does stress me out). The one thing I don't "love" is trying to get a good Christmas picture..... Seriously, how hard can it really be for all four of my children to look at me all at once with a nice smile?? ARRRGGGHHHHH!!!!

Angie's not looking and is puckering
Bad glare in Cj's glasses and again, Angie is not looking
Finally got Angie to look AND smile, but got a bad glare in Cj's glasses
After having such fun decorating the tree and taking some candid shots, I guess they just didn't feel like giving mommy the prize-winning shot......... Oh, but they will......... we will just try it again, t-o-n-i-g-h-t!!!
I am finally taking CJ (well, all the boys....Angie will stay home with daddy) to see "Twilight" this weekend. He has been begging me, but it has just been real busy around the house!! We've finally got a little time off and I am actually pretty excited to see it myself... hmmmmm, maybe this could be bargaining tool for a good Christmas picture, huh??

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Writer's Workshop -- TAG, I'm it!!!

It’s that time of the week....….. Good Morning Mrs. MamaKat…..yes, I did miss doing my Writer’s Workshop last week because of Thanksgiving…. And yes, I am ready for the challenge today!!! Like always, she has some good choices for writing prompts….I’d like to take the easy way out and discuss the chaos that my dog has caused this week if you've been reading this past week, then you already know); but, I think I’m going to take the really easy way out (because of all of that chaos and stress from that dog) and accept her TAG!!

This is the 6th picture in my 6th folder on my computer…. I wonder if anyone knows who this is……………………….? Simon LeBon, from Duran Duran. A few months ago, I went to see them in concert with a few friends and boy did we have a blast…. Come on, you know you love some “Reflex”.

This next picture is the 6th picture in the 6th folder on my Photo Bucket account….My CJ, my big boy!! For real, look at him, almost 13—t-h-i-r-t-e-e-n. He is almost as tall as me, his face is starting to look “man-like” and the voice…well, yes, it is cracking and deepening!! He wanted me to take this picture after he had just gotten his hair buzzed. And of course, we had to take the picture without his glasses on. He really, really wants to try out contacts, as he is at that age where he doesn’t think his glasses are “cool” (in my eyes he is ALWAYS cool). It's funny because everytime I look at him now, I am amazed at how "grown-up" he looks and acts (except of course that he is still a super picky eater).

Wordful Wednesday - Spaghetti Face

Ok, so I made it to 6:00am this morning.... I was quite excited when I opened up my eyes and realized I had slept past 4:45am.... oh, it's just the little things that amuse me....seriously!!!
So, I was going through some old pictures and found one that I decided to use for Wordful Wednesday at Seven Clown Circus.

This is my little Joseph about 4 years ago..... he had just got done eating a plate full of spaghetti that ended up more on his face (and hair) than in his mouth. I remember this day....I remember this "time in my life". This picture was taken at the home the boys and I moved into after my divorce. I don't know that I could call it "home", because I never really felt comfortable there; it was a transition time I guess and the only thing good about that house was that it was right by mom's house. Anyway, back to the picture.....just look at those cheeks....and those big eyes. Even with spaghetti all over, he melts my heart!!!
Fast forward 4 - 4 1/2 years and here's my big boy (well, he's not very "big" a matter of fact he has always been very small for his age) again with spaghetti on his face....and still melting my heart (even when he has me wanting to pull my hair out):

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

How can I manage all of this....???

First of all.....what is up with me waking up every morning now at 4:45 am....? I swear this was the 3rd morning in a row that my eyes popped open right at that time and I could not go back to sleep!!! I guess my body feels rested enough....and actually it's kind of nice to have those couple of hours
I finally got to bring my dog home yesterday evening..... you wouldn't believe how much money I had to pay for him and how much medicine he now has to take!!!! I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed..... It's Christmas time, so I have shopping, decorating, baking, etc.... plus work and kids still. Oh and then there's the Christmas cards, so I need to pick out cute outfits, get the kid's pictures taken and get my cards made and mailed out..... and now I have to try to get my pup to take 10 pills every morning and evening and make sure he is eating and drinking so he won't get dehydrated and so he can have a bowel movement (right now he has some major blockage in his colon)...and, right now he is still irritable from being in the hospital so I have to be careful with the kids and our other dog around him.
I know that there are many other things that could be wrong right now....and I am truly grateful for everything....but once again, I am just feeling a bit overwhelmed by it all.......and since this is MY blog, I am going to vent!!!
Do you really believe that God only gives us what we can handle??? Because I'm starting to wonder why/how He thinks I can handle all of this stuff....

Monday, December 1, 2008

The Long Holiday Weekend is!!!

Boo-Hoo....I really enjoyed this looonnnggg weekend...well, all except the fact that my dog got so sick and is still in the doggy hospital. I got alot done yet at the same time did alot of nothing. Very, very relaxing...actually so much so, that I actually felt guilty yesterday evening about the fact that I hadn't taken Angie out much (we are usually on the go-go-go all weekend). The one great thing about the weekend being over is that my boys are back home.... they spent the long weekend with their dad and I picked them up this morning...yay!!! You know the funny thing about that is that when they first go there, I get to relax and am like ahhhhhh; but within a few hours I'm bored to pieces and miss the loudness and craziness that is my life!!
Anyway, since this is Monday....I guess I need to let you know all the things I "did not" do this past weekend. And after you read all my funnies...head over to Mckmama's and read everyone else's guilty secrets....

I did not buy a pre-cooked smoked turkey this year for Thanksgiving...I must certainly did not think it would just be too much hassle with everything else going on, to buy and cook for hours a raw turkey.
I did not have Joe put that said turkey in the oven in just enough time for it to smell up the house like it had been cooking all morning.
I did not keep drinking the Molson beers just because I kept wanting to see what the "which would you prefer's......." where on the back of the labels. If I did do that, I would've seen some funny "would you prefer to be a werewolf or vampire? or "would you prefer to have a time machine or money-making machine?"
I did not go out and brave the crowds on "Black Friday"...and I certainly did not L-O-V-E
And when I got home form shopping, I did not find my dog sick---very sick
While carrying that sick, 55lb dog to the car (because he could not walk), I did not fall down on my butt (with him on top of me) when trying to prop him up and open the truck door.
I did not have to bring my 3 year old with me to the ER vet....but if I did, I'm sure she would've been a little angel because she would've known how worried and scared I was...
We did not leave the UCF football game early on Saturday because the game was SO pathetic...geez, they better get some talent on that team or known of us will want to renew our season tickets!!
Joe and I did not spend 4 or 5 hours hooked on "Lock-Up, Raw" on MSNBC....and I was not fascinated with how much that would suck to be 1) an inmate in any jail...but especially a jail in a rough city/jail...i.e: San Quentin (i know--they did it to themselves) and 2) a correction officer having to deal with the inmates....
I did not wake up yesterday and this morning at 4:45am...both mornings...for NO reason at all!!!