Thursday, December 11, 2008

Writer's Workshop... Lend Me and Ear

Once again, it’s Thursday and I’m loving the fact that this week flew right by….. But I guess during this time of year, the days do just fly by and before I know it will be Christmas!!! Speaking of Christmas, this is “one of those Christmas’s”; and by that I mean, the boys will be with there dad on Christmas this year…. Boo!!! I.hate.it. It’s not supposed to be this way!! I know, I know, I’m supposed to be “fair”; it’s “according to the divorce docs”…..but WTF was I thinking when I agreed to let my boys go away every other Christmas…?? It’s just not the same waking up on Christmas morning to only Angie at the side of my bed, begging me to wake up and see what Santa brought (because they all know they are NOT allowed to go through Santa’s presents without me there to see the excitement). It’s not the same making our Christmas breakfast with 4 eggs instead of the whole dozen, and 6 pieces of bacon instead of the whole package…. We will be celebrating our (meaning with the boys) Christmas on Christmas Eve this year. We will wake up on Christmas Eve and pretend it’s Christmas morning and I will try to maintain all of our little traditions that we usually do on Christmas morning!! And then after we do our gifts and breakfast and play time, I will take them on “that drive” to their dad’s house and say goodbye for 10 days….oh and yes, I will cry the whole way home!!!
WOW—that felt good to get that off my chest… I’ve been wanting to whine and b*@tch about it for a while now!! Thanks for listening!! And that works out perfect for today’s Writing Assignment at MamaKat’s!! She asks “Who makes the best listener and why?”
My immediate answer would be my mom of course. She was the best listener known to man-- I could tell her anything, anytime!! Unfortunately, since she passed away, I can only talk to her "spirit"; and while I do "do" that, it's just not the same!! The next answer would be that all of you are my best listeners, and let me tell you why!! I can come here and talk to you at anytime of the day, whether it be early in the morning or after a late, late night. I can tell you anything...whatever is on my chest. I can vent and complain when I'm angry; I can smile and laugh and tell you the funny stories; I can gloat and brag and tell you how proud I am of my family; I can cry when I'm sad or hurting; I can unload my burdens by just writing it out.....most of all, I can come here and just-be-me!!! And the best thing is, I can do all of this without interuption!! :) You listen but you don't talk back. You let me spill my guts at 100 miles/minute and don't cut in and make me stop for a break. And then, when you know I need it, you offer your words---words of support or laughter or encouragement!!

10 comments:

Carrin said...

I'm with you on the Christmas front! I will spend Christmas Eve with my kids and then they go to their dad's. Try not to get depressed about it though. I just make sure to have the kids tell Santa that we will celbrating on a different day. That eases the load on him, you know.

Michelle said...

I'm sorry you won't have your boys on Christmas day! That would suck.

Hugs!

Los said...

Hmmph - I like the twist of making the blog (and its readers) the best listeners!

angie said...

THANK you for being such a good listener to ME. If I didn't have friends like you that listened and were never negative.........I don't know what I'd do. I'm sorry you don't have your boys for Christmas. I know that would break my heart.

I also love traditions and really enjoyed the pictures of your dad and son making the mashed potatoes!

Mama Dawg said...

I'm sorry you lost your best listener and that you won't have your boys on Christmas.

Rhonda said...

Aw, your mom sounds awesome!!!

And I'm very sad for you! At least you have one kid in the house to wake up with. At least it's not a completely empty nest!

And remember that their Dad has to do it every second year too.

Keep your chin up and make the best of it.

April said...

My son goes to his dad's on the last day of school until the 26th at noon. These years are always hard. Next year will be better!

Mama Amber said...

So sorry you won't have the boys Christmas day, but it sounds like you all will enjoy Christmas Eve together before they have to go.

I, too, beleive my blog readers are the best listeners :-)

Heather Marie said...

I'm sorry that you don't get to be with your boys on Christmas Day this year :( I'm sure that they will miss you and Christmas Eve will be very special in your home :)

Nice post about your mom :) And I enjoy reading your blog and I'm glad that I came across it!

Jaime Ann said...

We have to split the holidays too. (and it does suck) My little kiddos are only one, but I hate that they don't get to be with their older siblings all the time. But I guess as long as all are healthy and happy that is what matters, it is just hard to feel like I know I should. Just cherish the time you get with them and make the best of the one on one time with your girl. Hang in there!!! Your momma must be one proud angel in heaven as she watches over you!