Thursday, January 7, 2010

5 Years and It Does NOT Get Easier.....

In Loving Memory of "Nanny"
June 6, 1952 - January 7, 2005

This day 5 years ago, my mother lost her battle with cancer!! This day 5 years ago, I watched my mom take her final breaths and finally be at peace and out of pain!! This time 5 years ago, I laid my head in my mommy's lap and cried and she started her journey to Heaven..... family and her best friend at her side; praying in her ear as she died!! This time 5 years ago, we were making funeral arrangements...
I feel cheated...I feel she was cheated on life!! She didn't get the chance to grow old and watch her grandchildren graduate, start careers, get married etc... She didn't get the chance to grow old with me!!!
5 years and it doesn't get any easier..... time does NOT heal the wounds; it only makes me learn to live with it!!
-
Mom--
I miss you more than words can describe!! You were the BEST mom in.this.world. You were my best friend, comforter, confidant, advice giver, "on call" medical help, shopping buddy, best cook, favorite sleepover buddy and the best Nanny to my children --You made me who I am today; and I pray that I will be half the woman, mother, co-worker, daughter and friend that you were!!
Love you honey,
Mistletoe

7 comments:

Steven Anthony said...

I lost my mom a yr and half ago to brain cancer, I had been her constant care giver for the final yr.....I read this and so many things flooded back to my mind...

I pray you can find some peace on this day remembering the good times...I was told time makes it better, but Im not sire I agree, I would say time changes how we deal with the loss, but there is always a piece missing.....Im rambling, sorry....

Your in my thoughts and prayers;)

April said...

I know your mom is watching over yall and loving every minute. HUGS!!!!!!!

Hair Bows & Guitar Picks said...

That was so sweet....and know I must got dry my eyes.

Lisa Anne said...

I can totally relate. I think as the years pass it gets harder. I miss my MOM too!

Carrin said...

My heart breaks for you, Melissa. Your mom sounds like a wonderful woman. Take comfort in the fact that you have a special angel watching over your family.

~~Mel~~ said...

I am so sorry for your loss Melissa. I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like year after year to remember exactly how it was when your mom passed.

Take comfort in knowing that she is always close by and watching over you and your family.

Mommy Lisa said...

All I can do is send you this.

(((((Hug)))))