Monday, October 19, 2009

Did You Know that I've Never...........


As I tried to think about 5 things I've never done, I actually had a hard time with it.... I have always been a go-getter; I've always "took the bull by the horns"... "gone for the gusto"... I am an adreniline junkie... love adventure... And don't tell my dad this, but I have done some "experimenting" in my day (it was high school, people... who didn't "try" something).

So as I sit here, thinking.... I would have to say that more of my "never have dones" are more on the reserved, quiet, peaceful side.... well, except for the first one:

I've never:
jumped from an airplane (sky-diving) or hung high from the back of a boat (para-sailing); two things I have always wanted to do. I really don't think I ever will sky-dive, because now I am older and am a mom....and well... it is pretty dangerous. but I do fore-see myself para-sailing... the next time I am in Key West.

I've never:
been good about accepting "constructive criticism"... I am a defensive person (don't know why) and I've never liked to be told what I am doing wrong!! I work better with "positive reinforcement".. know what I mean?

I've never:
cheated on any boyfriend, husband, S.O. etc..... EVER.. and have no desire too!! I just don't have the time or energy to do the whole "sneaking around and hiding phone calls or texts" BS. If I ever feel the need or the want to stray, I will just leave him all together... obviously something would be VERY wrong to cause me to feel that way.

I've never:
betrayed a friend........EVER........ and never will!! I may have my b-i-t-c-h-y moments, but I am a loyal, faithful person. I am a good friend... true to them.. would never want to hurt them. I love my best girl friends like they are my sisters and would do anything for them.

AND, I've never:
gotten through the grief of losing my mom.... and I never, ever, ever will!!! There is not much explaining to this one, except that you all know how CLOSE we were to each other... and that it was HORRIBLE to watch my mom, my friend, my companion, my comforter suffer and die. IT SUCKS... Time does not make it better... time only makes it "bearable" to live with.


Lisa Anne said...

I feel the same way about losing my Mom. She was so young. Time has made it harder, each year gets harder and harder. It's unbearable for me sometimes.

Poolside with the Girls said...

I'm sorry about your mom. Totally understandable why you would never get over that.

The World As I See It said...

I am sorry about your mom!

Shell said...

I always think that "constructive criticism" is what someone calls it when they want to be able to insult you but be able to say that oh, they were just being able to help.

So sorry about your mom. :(

Mommy Lisa said...

I cannot imagine when I lose my mom. It will be hard...

SupahMommy said...

awww.. im so glad that lisa posts for you.

i love that you don't sugar coat it up

suffer and die is right

it is horrendous to have some one stolen so cruelly.. you never ever get over it and will never / should never be expected to

it is haunting.

i para sailed once to
i peed my pants in mid air

no i didn't..

i just wanted to make you smile.


Evonne said...

Positive reinforcement work s better with me, too.

I don't think you ever get over the loss of a loved one, nor should you be expected to. I think over time, you're just able to deal with it better. Most days anyway. I still have my days where I miss my dad and it's been 14 years.

Raising Z said...

I am really sorry to hear about your mom...I can't even imagine. I hope you get to go para-sailing soon...I have been twice and it is AMAZING :)

MommyBrain said...

Here's a surprise for you ... I have jumped from an airplane! Most people cannot believe that about me ... but I loved every minute of it ... including a full 60 seconds of free fall! Awesome! But I did it when I was like 22 years old ... and I would never dream of doing it now that I'm a mom ... shifts your perspective, ya know?!

I came close to losing my mom to a battle with breast cancer. It was just awful. But she fought back, and I am so, so thankful to have her in my life. Hearing about your loss really brought back some tough memories ... I am so sad just thinking about girls without their mommies :(

April said...

You are obviously a very good person!

SgtSudsWife said...

I feel the same way about losing my grandmother. She is the one who raised me and she passed before I had kids so my girls will never meet her and it makes me sad.

I also am not good with criticism AT ALL!